Looking for Jesus

I watched this video at small group tonight:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=SCMoN-a3CCs&feature=BF&list=PL14EB20318E94290E&index=3

It's traditional Jesus in his white robes and blue sash, traditional Jesus with long wavy hair and a beard...but there's something about the way Jesus is portrayed in this video, smiling and laughing, confusing his friends and talking about his Father. He seems so real it makes me think about the fact that Jesus was actually here...on earth I mean. He walked in the sand and he touched people, he laughed and went to parties and he cried with his friends. He comforted people going through hard times and he spoke truth to those who would listen and he really loved people. And then he died like one of us...and that was real too.
My favorite part in this little video was when Mary, Lazarus' sister, sees Jesus coming and she runs desperately to him and falls at his feet. It touched me because I realized that Jesus is still here and I can still run to him like she did. When the world doesn't make sense, when relationships get complicated, when I'm tired and lost...Jesus is there waiting for me to run to him. I can't help but picture him when I finally meet him physically in heaven. I think he'll smile and be teary eyed and passionate and when he looks at me, I just know that my doubts and fears and everything else will melt away and all that will remain is him. Just Jesus. That's the only thing that matters.
I want to find Jesus in my life here. Sometimes I see him when I look at the stars, sometimes I see him when I sing in the car and other times I see him when I talk to people about what they're passionate about. I see Jesus moving and working and being when I look for him. I want to seek him out like Mary, in desperation. I want to find him and let him look me in the face and tell me whatever it is I need to hear. I want to have coffee with him in the morning and tell him how my day went before I go to sleep. I want to bump into him at work and introduce him to my friends. But it'll be a lot easier to find Jesus and do these things if I'm waiting for him, expecting him. I want to look for him because he promised me:

You will seek me and find me when you seek me with all of your heart.
Jer 29:13